who is out there who uds the situation i am in now. i really hope that x and y could uds my situation now, and how do i feel? they may think what i said to them are fake, or even lies but i told them my true feelings le. but i dont think they uds. i really hope that they knw the type of sch life i have, relations with frens, and all the efforts that i made. but why .. why did i choose to escape?

i dont wanna disappoint u 2 frm the beginning and never wanted at all. but it seems that in what ever things i do – grades, as a son, as a person, frens and my life, i tend to disappoint u two, the most beloved persons of my life. i am sorry but i think u all cannot imagine the pain i have rite now in my heart, when u said that u wouldnt care bout me anymore. it hurts so bad that i feel that i wanna die right now, the purpose of living has evaporated into thin air and fly past as though the wind. i really hope that my existence would not exist as it would only hurt u two. can anyone (like mrs. happy) help me tell them? cos i dont think i have any chance to do so…