woohoo, took my last paper today-physics. omg this paper was a bit of a killer. LOL the mcq stunned most of the ppl liao, including me. but somehow i feel that the Section B is erm, easier? lol. actually, frankly speaking, i didnt study much, but jus read thru and try to rmb the eqns. LOL tis exam the eqns i used dont noe correct anot. haha.. hope it is.

Frankly speaking, tis exam i only put in effort for my chemistry exam. hope the results doesnt fail me. >< the others, erm due to external reasons LOL and i admit that, i seriously is fcked up and didnt wan to study. T_T tis must change!!! argh!!!! i have 1 month to do so. if not, be prepared to see me in a J-P. Jc + Poly. LOL take 3 years.

speaking of tis, my sch got like quite a no. of ppl repeating lei. see some familiar faces, and some with obvious looks that seems so old, cfm not my batch one. haha. i dont wanna be lik tat nxt year. OMG!! i wan go ARMY!! TEKONG I AM WAITING FOR U EXCITEDLY!!! ^^

i am trying hard to not think bout it.

now focusing on my phy and chem, which i have to do well, cos i didnt study for my math and hist paper. for the math paper, i dont know i will pass or fail but most probably the latter. haha. but for the hist, i think i can pass man. LOL wrote watever i rmbed. haha. okok i going study liao! chiong ar!!!!

wow, i am quite smart man! i nvr study oso can do some of the math ques, but i think i missed 1 ques man! shit. i nvr check properly. haix. but i tried my best lol.

nvm. i am going to focus on my physics and chem!! mus score well for tis 2. jiayou.

hmm, i wonder how happy u are now. haha…

you will remain a special person to me,

always a part of my life.

My principle- if u cant have the one u love, den u would only hope she will be happy and safe in the one she loves.

i will try, but i cant promise. waitng for tat one day.

BUT for NOW, Best Friends Forever!!

haix. recently, found out that, my circle of frens has become smaller. i have been lik hanging ard wif only my brothers and u noe wat, my other frens seems to drift further. haix sian.

den now, i seems to be alone sioh. STUDY oso ALONE, Go school ALONE, eat oso ALONE. haix. sibei sian. its like a loner’s life. although i noe my brothers will pei me. but they are not always free.

i really need help in my study and hope that u would help. & dk for wat reasons, u couldn’t or wouldn’t allow me to study tgt. even when i said to study in the living room and u all in the room. i noe u all wan to gossip and such but i jus wan to have someone to help me with my doubts and i trust u.

nvm. mayb tis is the A lvl period where everyone mug on their own. mayb i shld adopt this policy too- mugging.

had chem tutorial in a air-con-less lecture theater frm 9-12. luckily there were 2 fans and i was smart to sit beside the fan. haha. didnt fell asleep even though i slp at 4 last night at eugene hs.

den after that, went for physics tutorial frm 1-5. OMG LAH. it was quite torturing at first. but after that, due to the fun of physics, it was enjoying and i really listened. however, after lik 3+ hrs of tutorial with a 10 min break in between, the whole class was dying. LOL. after which, MR Lee then decided to stop after the finishing our EMI tutorial, if not we will there until 7pm. haha. went str home after that!

it still bothers me & i really wanna noe the ans. how? :(

i jus saw smth which brought my mood down. extremely low now.

“i just cant stop thinking about him”

i am back frm my bball training camp. sad with smth.. but frm the camp, i realised smth. i have become fitter. i ran 4 sets of 4 rds and timing was 705,710,703 and 640.

3 sets of 3rds with a timing of – avg 510. cant really rmb wat is the exact timing liao.

frm this camp, i also exprienced a consquence effect frm what i did in the past. haix.. sian..

okok. i going bath liao. very smelly now. jus come back.

Andy. 15/03/09 1043pm

A new start to a NEW life.

That’s what it’s going to be.

i am thinking, if time could be whined back like an alarm clock, wouldn’t tat be good? i guess everyone would want to redo smthings in life too. For me, it will be the sec 3 period, and knowing what lies after that, i will definitely change the way i live. haix. but obviously i cant. so i just have to change frm now. but it’s easier said than done.

so right now, just have to make use of the SHORT 24hrs that i have to complete what i got and must to do. though its hard doing it, but i have no other choice too. LOL. just hope that someone could help me through and acc me. i don wanna do this alone, but apparently, i have to. :(

just a random thought.

i have started with route A, but now, i am straying further and further frm A. The worst thing is, there are constant reminders telling me to go back to A, but i am still straying away frm it. haix.. Today, Ms Goh/Mrs Koh talked to me in private, and kinda give me a little wake up call. My parents too gave me 1, esp my dad though it’s a bit hurtful, but he’s right.

Since then, i am going to walk back to Route A and not astray to other routes. It’s going to be hard, but i noe i can do it, and I MUST DO IT! if not, there will be dire consequences.

Just a sentence that i wanna say…

There is a limit to everything, ESP Tolerance.